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I can't bring my thoughts to anything other than the memory of how I felt on a day, a good one a simple one with him. He loved me so much, his whole face lit up with every word I said and he couldn't help but smile and express his love towards me both verbally and physically, everything was perfect. But things have died down, things that happened causing this, the few large things at his fault but the small head games on my part just building up over time. I want to feel like I did at that time again. I want him to, its just been a bad week and I'm likely just to be over thinking like I always do if. If I wasn't so head strong I could put my

I need to learn to not worry so much especially at one happening or a slight something said or even at the mood somebody has given off or how I've effected somebody with the mood I've given off. Its just one day, everybody has those days. Its not going to ruin everything, maybe my largest worry is that I hope there not worrying on the other end of this. There probably not so I shouldn't either, I guess its the anticipation on seeing the one again or speaking to that one again thats getting at me. Since I know when that happens everything is just fine as always, at ease just as before. I just wish it would happen sooner than later.

Through judgment I have grown to care more about what people think than I should, so much that I have learned to even edited my thoughts around certain people.